As summer winds down and the first day of school rapidly approaches, I find myself reflecting on how much my kids and I have changed in these few short months. While I have been counting down the days to that first bell, suddenly I am sad our days together are about to end.
My Need for Routines Disappeared on the Last Day of School
First, let’s say any semblance of structure has completely gone out the window. Firm bedtimes and sleeping in one’s bed seem like a thing of the past. I have become surprisingly okay sleeping on the couch with a kid, while the other kid sleeps in my bed with my husband or vice versa.
Of course, my husband complains about it. But he hasn’t stepped in to help with bedtime routines so he can’t be too upset about it.
Oh man, are we all in for a rude awakening when school starts and bedtime routines are again reinforced. I guess my lesson learned here is as long as everyone gets to sleep; we are good. At least during the summer.
My Daughter is No Longer a Baby
I mean already knew this; she is going into first grade. But she still had some fears about certain things. Dude, has that changed. Spending so much time with her older brother has turned her into a fearless, get dirty with the boys, sassy little thing. As much as I am terrified of this new persona, I am glad too.
She is also a clever, clever girl. It’s incredible to me what she picks up on without being told. I mean she is only six, but sometimes she’s more intuitive than a lot of the adults I know. I am thankful I was able to take in this summer. During the school year so much is going on we don’t notice subtle (or not so subtle) changes in our kiddos.
My Little Boy is Turning into a Snarky Tween
Although, he isn’t to double digits yet. He seems to be achieving the little smart-alecky qualities of a tween a little soon. He still has sweet moments, but those are few and far between. Usually at bedtime or when he wants something.
He also loves his friends and spending time with them. He questions the world around him and thinks he can solve anything, on most days. On his bad days, he gets a little down on himself as we all do. Which is hard sometimes because I’m still learning to navigate my own bad days. But we do our best.
In the End
I think what I’ve learned the most, is good days or not. Struggle or ease as long as we work together, love each other, at the end of the day, we will be okay. Even on days when I feel overwhelmed with all that life throws at me or us, showing up and doing my best is the only way to move forward. Sometimes my best may not look like my best, but it’s the best for that day, and that’s enough.